Instead, I......
Wake up
Force myself to eat something that might stay down
Get myself dressed
Get my daughter dressed-with out a melt down!
Drop her off at school
Work until the last possible moment before I'm late to pick her up from school
Dig through my empty fridge wondering what I can make, that wont make my house hotter than it already is
Sit at the computer and pout
Is it bed time yet?
I had no doubts about having Anisten, and being capable of taking care of her. She came at the most inconvenient time in my life, but the most perfect.
This time around, I am asking myself everyday, "Can I do this?"
My house is destroyed because I have no energy to play with Anisten, so she drags toys to whatever room I'm laying in. And I have no energy to pick them up and put them away.
My laundry is backed up (this is huge for me!)
I already feel like I am lacking in sleep-- Really? Before I have a newborn?!
I guess I just need to know that having 2 is do-able.
Today I am 13 weeks and 1 day.
*Here's to hoping that I return to semi-normal soon!
In the words of the "Waterboy" 'You cannnn dooo eeet!' :) Think about how much of a difference there was in Anisten between the ages 1 and 2, thats where you are now. NOW think about the much more learning and growing she will do from 2 to 3. Thats where she will be. Its hard to imagine how much bigger and smarter and more able to communicate she will be by then. That alone will make it easier. She will want to nurture and love the baby and maybe even WANT to do a few "big girl" chores around the house. Not to mention all of your family and friends that will help out. IT TAKES A VILLAGE! :) (My profile messes up and i cant post as ME, so im posting anonymously! - Melissa)
ReplyDeleteI know, it's so hard to wrap your head around it when you're struggling every day to get enough energy to do the things that are just normal day things! I know that I'm not the first person in the world to have 2 kids! LOL!
ReplyDeleteI LOVE the red black and white (stripes) thing. I have considered it, and I've also considered just doing crayon primary colors too.... just not sure!